i was adding context to the experience, to make more sense but it got out of hand. (and i thought i curbed myself!) i do this way too much and i apologize for bringing that here.

i had a feeling to write this, to let whatever come out of it. if i got a comment with info, it would be nice but if i didn’t receive a response it’s still fine. i didn’t fully understand how potent the knowledge on soul-healer would be and i wanted to leave a record of that experience for another. i saw that other folks were going on tangents and since this was my first experience with an angelic being with an interesting twist, i thought it would be okay here. if it is not, i apologize.

when i first called archangel michael i did not know how deep this could go and had a hard time believing the gnosis i was getting. it was the experience itself that provided more evidence and helped me understand the connection. i make space for them (just for emergency night protection) even with this awareness, because i’m in crisis mode, to make do until i can get my head above water.

right now i can’t book a session. i am disabled (i was well before, now everything is blocked and sabotaged) and can’t make any money. my entire family is under intense pressure as well (though not as bad as me) with huge financial sabotage. they’re on a knife edge, there is no help there either. so i’m trying to figure out how to get myself together enough that i can book a session in the future.

i am surrounded by dead ends and catch-22s so i’m constantly going around looking for the slightest opening i can widen. i am having a very hard time dealing with the bit of info coming to me, as reasons for some of my issues, as i get a lot of interference (above and beyond what i got before i got sick). it is relieving to hear outside of my head that ‘light’ beings are attacking me. i will push forward with this and see what i can do.

thank you for replying as well as for the resources you’ve provided.

Why have you put this as a comment on realitywalker.com? Are you asking for help? Is so then why are you not following what I state on every contact page? This comment does not relate to what I write on this site here.

Why would you invoke Archangle Michael when these attacks you are having are coming from so called ‘light’ beings? If you want to take this further i.e. take up my time then follow instructions that are presented both on soul-healer.com AND all of my contact pages.

when i used the popular st. michael prayer to protect my room, he unexpectedly showed up (and gave me a heart attack). we had a brief conversation and i was questioned about my reading of soul-healer.com. i’m in a really desperate situation so i said i’d allow myself to be convinced otherwise. i hadn’t read the site in the few months since if found it anyways.

but things got to the point that i tried the self-healing handbook, but i wasn’t getting enough, so i went back to soul-healer.com for clues. sure enough i got cut off, with the message not to invoke him again. however i think archangel michael took pity on me (though had to maintain appearances). so instead of direct petition, i can allow him into my space and he puts up protection as he chooses.

i am not entirely shocked, as i have a deep aversion to ‘love&light’ propoganda, even when it looks subverted (but still upholds the same outcome), despite all my efforts to accept it. and i had/have a deep irrational fear of petitioning archangel michael for help. i did only at night, because the attacks were so persistent with lethal intent and overwhelmed my current ancestral guides (who had protected me from dozens of others). considering the level of sabotage, being complete blocked in every area of life, and attacks that are going for the killing strike, and a deep fear of appealing to deities, i may have some issues related to lightwork. or something.

however, i don’t mind this arrangement. it was very hard that month to censor my thoughts and stay within the party lines.

speaking of sabotage, this is almost the tenth time i’ve tried to leave a comment. hmmmm.

Am I wrong?